Cinta Dhairah Selamanya, Ended.
150307 - 200810. *brokenheart*
050210 - 200810. *brokenheart*

Lastly, may you live happily after today alright? :')






Papa! Papa! Papa! Mama can't wait for our date tomorrow sayang! Yeayyyyyyy! Hehe! Tomorrow will be our day okay hubby? I love you dear! Muahhhhhhhhhh! :)

Anw, ni mama update blog pakai iPod kakak ipar. Just a short post ajeeeee dear. Heh! Okay mama tak sabar untuk besok! Muahhhhhh! :)

Loves, Mama Eerah. ^^


Sampai ke mati pun, hidup kita akan tetap bersama. Tiada siapa pun yang dapat memisahkan kita kerana cinta kita akan hingga ke akhir hayat. Sehidup semati, kau dan aku akan sentiasa bersatu. Dua hati menjadi satu, dan tidak akannya ia menjadi dua kembali kerana kita adalah sehati sejiwa.

Cinta suci ku kepadamu tiadalah palsu. Dan ia tidak pernah putus untuk dicurahkan kepadamu.

Hubby, I hope you too mean all this to me dear. :')
I love you Sayang. Muahhhhh!

Loves, Mama Eerah. ^^





Firstly, this post is about our day on Saturday, 3rd July 2010. :)

Our life has lots & lots of ups & down. There're soo many problems that we're going through right now. Lack of time for each other, financial disorder, mis-communication.. etc. Well, despite all that, we're still standing strong until now. It's been almost 5 months, almost, still we're standing strong. Or shall i say 39 months together? :)

Hubby's currently having his financial disorder. As his wifey, i am always there for him no matter what. Without fail i'll try to help him with his problems, in any ways. In other words, there's noone in this world would leave their loved ones to suffer on their own. :')

Met my dear hubby today at his homey. Noone's home, so he's alone. Plus he just came back home at 8 plus in the morning. -,-" I was angry, but as long as you're safely home, then that's fine. I've told hubby about my predictions about him. Usually, i would ask him where he were or what he were doing. He'll answer me nicely & yes of course, i trusted him. But somehow, i dont know, like sometimes after he reported strength at me, my heart would beat faster than normal. I knew somethings not right but i just ignored it, cause i believed hubby. So i dont think too much. Well yes, my predictions was right. He didnt lie to me, but he just didnt want to tell me where he was last night as he knew that if he told me, i would flare up for sure. So he decided not to tell, & yes he told me just now after something happened. -,-

Our plan today was to catch a movie together. But when i reached his homey, & since he said his body was aching & his body was hot, so i give it a miss. Seeing hubby sleeps makes my mind into peace. Looking at how he greatly enjoying his sleeps & doesnt care about the surroundings really makes me smile. :) Mak was homed & she straight away cooked. & yet, hubby's still sleeping. Time checked was 4pm. Shaked hubby up & yes, he was a lil awake. Massaged his body & served him his all time favourite, Chocolate Milk. Also ate his Magnum Gold. Oh before i forgot, Thanks Hubby For The Magnum Gold. I Love You. Muah! :) Bought him ciggy then off he went to bath. Thought of going to movie date but nevermind. It was 5pm plus when i thought about it. So i just forget it.

Then hubby when out to 'exchange' some stuffs. I waited for him for like 2 & half freaking hours! -,-"" Mak kept on asking me to eat but i refused & said that i am waiting for hubby. While waited for hubby, i read his malay novel until i fell asleep. Ishk! Dasattttt~ :P Kept on dialing hubby but he didnt answer. At last, he picked up & my heart was like 'Thank God'. Asked him where he was & he said he's still at Woodlands & was stopped by a TP for U-turning. Hang up the phone & waited for him. Again, i didnt feel right. My heart was like telling me that something's not right. Because of my trust to him, i just didnt care about it that much.

Hubby reached home at 8pm. Asked about the 'exchange' thang, but he remain as silent. I was wondering why. I asked again, & straight away he hugged me. The moment he did that, i knew exactly what happened. By looking deep into his eyes, i knew he was at a place where i didnt like him to be. I talked to him nicely & never make him even stressed up. I love him. What do you expect? I cant bear looking at him stressing himself over something that he did which was not worth it at all. That amount may be much but it has already gone & we cant turn back the time to get it back. Hubby kept on thinking about it & kept saying that he's at fault.

Without any hesitation, hubby gave his ATM card to me & asked me to keep it. I rejected it. It's yours dear, so you keep it. Hubby, no matter how bad you are, you're still my hubby dear. & i know you can change into someone better, but it takes time. Yes it's true, people dont change in a blink. They takes time to even making themselves used to living into a better environment. I know you can hubby. :) After talking our hearts out which i thought it was kinda romantic, we had our dinner. HEHE! *mentels!* Well, it was the first meal for me for the day while it was second's for hubby. Hubby was left with no cash, so i gave him my cash first for his 1 day survival which is today. :D

The clock striked 9pm & it's time for me to go home. Hubby sent me to the bustop & it was kinda hard for me to leave him at that moment. Heh! I cant even be separated from him for like a night or 2, then how about 3 months?! Talking about that, hubby's going Australia on end Sept until early Dec for his NS. :'( Gona miss hubby real much! 3 months of not meeting him, kiss or even hug, that's mad! -,-" We're left with 2 months plus to spend our time with each other. Wow! How fast could time flies..

Today or later at 8am, hubby's going for his last practical. Hopefully he pass. Amin. :) When i reached homey, on the phone with hubby & talked about his day today which is Sunday. I arranged every of his time & i am glad he agreed with my arrangements. I hope it goes well for him today. :) Hubby wanted me to become his daily planner or financial arrangements as he thought that he's still not ready as yet to hold his own money. Firstly i thought that hubby would be angry as i was like anyhow arrange his day but it was the opposite. He liked it & yes, i am so glad. I love you dear. :)

Currently i am at my Sis huda's homey to sleepover. Hubby was mad at me as i didnt tell him first about this. I am sorry dear. ^_^" Called hubby & thank God he's not angry anymore. Hehe! :D On the phone with him until he feels sleepy. Say goodnight kiss & wishes, then off he went to bed. Gona shake him up at 6.30am later for his practical.


I am currently awake as i cant sleep thinking about hubby. I believe every obstacles or problems in a relationship really did makes it stronger & closer. By going through all these, it allows us to know each other's strong & weaknesses. ;)

I guess i've typed long enough about me & hubby. & now it's time for bed. Hehe! Goodnight, sugardreams, sweetdreams, honeydreams, mimpi-mimpi manissssss to hubby! I love you & nothing can change that dear. Cinta Dhairah Selamanya. :)

Loves, Mama Eerah. ^^



Its 2.34am in the morning, & i havnt turn in as yet. Just finished watching Shrek Forever After on the net. Nak watch Karate Kid, but takot Hubby marah. Hehe! Bieeeeeeee! U kate nak tengok Karate Kid kan? Bileeeeeeee? Nanti i da tengok, u marah pulak kans. Heh! :D

Hubby if you were to read this post, sorryyyyyyy eh mama blom bobok! Mama cant bobok laaaa dear. Abeh you tuuuuuuu! Kate je lepas mandi nak kol mama. Abeh bobok pulak dier. -,-" Notty kans you? Hmph!

I am just counting down on how many days ive not meet my dear Hubby. Its been 11 days y'know! Rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu banget! Besok pagi jumpe you mesti pelokkkkkk ciommmmm you takkan lepas punye! HEHE! Jumpe you pagi pagi mesti blom mandi. Takpe, bushuk pon bushuk laaaaaaaa! Rindu punye pasal, mama okay gooooooo aje eh! Haha! :D

Okay laaaaa. I am off to bed now. Nanti takleh bangun nak jumpe Hubby i. Blueks! :D Goodnight, sugardream Sayang. Love youuuuuuuuuuu, muahhhhh! ^^

Loves, Mama Eerah. ^^



Hubby, its hard to explain our situation right now. I could see that youre changing & i dont feel your love anymore. I knew youre changing for the better right now. Youre going into a new world, & i cant seem to adapt to it. You said that i am changing. But do you have any idea why? I dont tend to change, but i tend to cry over our situation. Youre doing all this just for our future, & i strongly understand with it. But that makes us fall apart. We have lesser time for each other, & that makes me weak. Dear, how long will this be? :'(

Few days back, we were talking to each other on the phone on why we're like this. I mentioned about careness. I wanted to care for you. But for all you said was, right now you have lots of people that cares about you. I knew that Sayang. But i dont know why i have this feelings that you doesnt want me to care about you anymore. Honestly, i cried upon hearing you saying that. :'( I knew you meant good. But i just dont know why i cried. Maybe ive kept it for too long, & cant seem to keep it any longer...

Dear, I am thankful & blessed that God has gave me you. You are the light of my life. There're lots of obstacles that we've been through, & Alhamdulillah, we're strong until now. But our love wont stop here cause there're plenty more to go in the future. We had believed that Cinta Dhairah wont have any end. I love you, & nothing could explain that Sayang.

I am sorry i didnt trust & understand you that much. I am really sorry. You know my predictions about you is always right, & that predictions always haunt me. That is why i always act as if i dont trust you, but actually i just wanted to check whether my predictions about you was either right or wrong. I am sorry Sayang... :')

Cinta Dhairah is 39th months old plus 4th months old. & i believe we can go any longer that this Sayang. :')

Loves, Mama Eerah. :')


Today marks Mama's 17th birthday. Papa aren't here to celebrate it with me. Feel a lil bit lonely, but its okay. Cause families & friends are there with me. Although Papa seems to be far away from me, but he'll always be in my heart. Youre trapped inside my heart Dear. Dont dream on getting out cause youre always mine. :) I love you Sayang! ♥♥♥

Ive found out a way to communicate with Papa already. All thanks to Kak Ina for calling & update me about Papa. Ive yet to send my letter to Papa, cause tha outcome is still tha same. It needs 3 working days for tha letter to reach its place. So most prolly i'll send it today, & he'll received it most prolly a day after our 3rd monthsary. :)


Loves, Mama Eerah. :')



Mark this date. [21April2010]

It happened so fast. In a blink, i could see that you're gone. You'll be leaving me for a very very long time. But i know our love remains as one. I love you, & will wait for you no matter what & how long you will be away. :')


You gave me your last kiss. I'll definitely wait for your next kiss Bbie. Trust me. My love for you wont be any lesser, but it'll grow even stronger. Please behave Dear.

I know your dream is to have Baby Dhairah to see the world. Hold that dream Bbie. Cause i know that dream of ours will definitely come true. I promised. :')

Cinta Dhairah Selamanya. :')

Loves, Mama Eerah. :')